Triple Town

You know when I see two identical objects positioned adjacently, I'll imagine the third one coming and they'll form a new object. Just like those in Triple Town.

I just love Triple Town. I play it all day errday. I'M ADDICTED
Anyway Eid is nearing and I can't help but to think of him a little! This year was supposed to be our 3rd Raya together. My failure i guess. You know what I learned during Biology? At the synapse, when the action potential is received consecutively, our neuron will eventually accommodate to it & our body then would not produce any action to the stimulus. Maybe I've been dealing with this sadness repetitively until I learn how to adapt. Well, that's good right? I don't know.

DuSsTyY

Ah, my blog! For a moment, I cannot believe that I have a blog. Lol, who would've thought that a girl like me would write. I always thought I suck at expressing myself. Anyway, sorry for the very very long hiatus. For some reason, I couldn't and I don't want to open this blog. I'm not strong enough back then. Not saying that I am now. It's just that, I managed to accommodate.

Anyway, I should be writing my Personal Statement now. Which I really don't know how to write. Damn, how to impress those British dudes with my writing. That is not solid!!! Unfair. It's definitely a disadvantage to me. Come on, I prefer an interview!

Speaking of Education, I know I'm a dead meat after I finish my A-level. Say I got a placement in a Uni (which I hope I will! Amin), I still don't know who will sponsor my tuition fee!!!!! Takkan lah mahu suruh Bapa bayar semua, kasihan kasihan. Cannot cannot. Screw it.

Anyway, result will be out in 2 weeks time. I AM GOING TO DIE! I just hope I got As Many As!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO THAT MY FORECAST WILL LOOK GOOD AND THEM BRITISH PEEPS WILL LIKE ME. PLease please please

Everything happens for a reason
Everything happens for a reason
Everything happens for a reason

Oh how I wish I knew what's the logical reason behind all these drama(s)

Too tired to be sad
Too tired to be angry
Too tired to feel lonely
Too tired to hate
Too tired to love

Sure, I just let it passed. And right now, I'm feeling numb. Well, at times, of course it will come and haunt me. But.. at least not all the time.


Come one, where's the humanity in you

Dec

Haven't updated myself here for such a long time. Kinda lost that mojo in writing, I don't know what happened. I'm too caught up in studies and life drama(s). Well now I'm on my break until January; study break to be exact.

Life has not been so good to me lately. Well, that's normal right. At least I survived! And I'm still physically and mentally alive. I'm just too tired dealing with all of the drama(s) that I shouldn't even think about at the first place. Sucks being a woman, over-think, over-react, over-expect.

I NEED A CHILL PILL 

Exam is coming in 3 weeks time. Fucking important exam I need to score to apply Uni. Oh, I really hope I would get good result and good university placement there. Away from here, away from all of these shitloads of dramas. I just want to start a new chapter, meet new people, and discover my inner-self.

Is that too much to ask? 

C-c-c-ollege

They said College would be sucks. That was bullshit. College is totally wonderful. Really.

I registered alone. Literally alone. My mother just dropped me off at the main university. With plenty documents in my hand, I tried to look as calm as I could that day. Of course it was a nervous and some what important event of my life. Registering to college, for the first time. Alone. Haha, but I'm used to it, doing stuff alone. To summarize it all up, everyone was wonderful, friendly. I'm really glad by that part; friendly people. The orientation mainly revolved around "subjects briefing, scholarship application, how to choose suitable subjs" etc etc. It was okay, but kinda boring. But I was so glad there's no crappy orientation event like aerobic, ragging and whatnot.

Enough with orientation story (it was a 2 day orientation). It has been almost two weeks since class has started. I got to say that I feel kinda lost in class. I've been placed in a specific group for the recipients, which is Group K. I don't even know what's the point of them doing that. Why can't they just let us mix with others too. Okay, maybe I won't see the reason now, but hopefully one day I'll understand. Being in those group, like I said, really make me feel small, inferior somehow. They are so ultimately genius kiddos. It took me some times to recall back what I've learnt, and I usually don't have answers when the lecturer asked random Qs. I feel really low. But I know this is good. This kind of feeling will eventually boost my spirit, thus creating a good momentum.

I met so many wonderful people here. I can't name them all, ahaha. I love my college mates. I know it's only been a week or so since we know each other, but they're really nice. I can't help it but to give them my love :p I hope this kind of social circle I'm having will maintain, or maybe better after this. But *sigh*, I still miss my school play mates, I miss you girls, you know who you are. I wish we went to the same college. Hihi, that would be fun right.

As for studies, I don't know what got into me nowadays. I feel like I've lost my good, positive aura within me.  I've absolutely no mood to study. This is not good. The only time where I would study is during lectures. Back to hostel, or home, it's really hard to study. Look at me now, I should be studying instead of typing this. hahaha. I've to get my mojo back in studying. It's a must. I'm not a kiasu like what some people claimed me to be. It's just that, I've my reason why I've to study really hard, and constant. My brain works differently from others. It's a bit slow, and it requires lots of revising, memorising and stuff like that to increase its efficiency. I know my capability. I've my own way of studying. Maybe some of you guys are born-genius, lucky those people. Anyway, after this, back to revising. I think I've forgot almost 50% of the past lectures. Hahaha.

This one was from Bio Practical. The lecturer herself asked us to take our camera and captured the result, through the eyepiece! I find it funny, hihi. This is Lyana's. I don't wanna show mine, hodoh :p

Oh yeah, during weekdays I'm staying at Help Residency. My room mate won't be back until September. How cool is that? Having the room to yourself, all the time. Not cool, I'm a freaking Scaredy Cat. It was hard during my first day there, hahaha, especially when the air-cond keeps making loud noises. Anyway, good things come in the morning. I live on level 12. And I can see nice scenery through my window. :)

7+ am in the morning :)

The sun is about to rise!

Night view, and also I found out that my iPad's camera is able to take bokeh pics, how wonderful!

Amir left yesterday. He got the offer to India for Medicine and I believed he was forced to accept the offer. I don't know what to say. Personally, I think one should have the right to plan their own future, and voice out their own opinion. But anyhow, everything happens for a reason. We might not see it now, but we will, in the future. Good luck future Dr. Amir. You'll do great.

Last photo of him at Help Uni 

I think that's about it. Will update from time to time. All of the photos above were taken using my iPad's camera. Starting to love the camera :)

Help!

There are only two things in my check list. Comforter set and boxes. See how clueless I am when it comes to preparing stuff? I haven't receive any e-mail regarding the stuffs needed. I haven't packed my bags! Argh I can't believe it's only next week.

I'll be entering college real soon. I'm not really sure what I'm feeling right now. But the most prominent feeling is...I'm scared. My current bloody brain's composition is 10% factual 90% cartoon. I'm soo not ready to swap those two :( 

Assalamualaikum and Hello.

For the past two days, I managed to make full use of my free time(yay, finally). Last Saturday, I decided to ajak Kiki keluar with me. I thought it had been a long time since I met my human friends. I fetch her and we went to Wangsa Walk. Oh and my mum tagged along, because she wanna go to Carefour. The first thing we did when we entered wwalk was..MAKANNNN. Me+Kiki=Monster. So we went to A&W. Ordered a BIG root beer with float. And yes, few food. Hahaha. So, we talked and talked then suddenly Amir Hamzah txt me and asked me and Kiki to teman him to Help College. So, yeah. Ma took the car back and we took the LRT to KL Sentral. 

We (Kiki, Amir, Me) sesat like hell from KL Sentral to Damansara. Hahaha, it was funny shit mangg, I can't describe it here lol. Daripada nak pergi ke Damansara terus tersasar ke Ampang. So last-last, Amir asked me to drive his mpv. Like dude I never drive a MPV! Hahaha, but it was worth the shot. I had fun messing around with his Honda Wald car :p See, when I drove the car, no sesat at all! haha. But luck was not on our side as Help closed on Saturday HAHAA. Damn, so again, Amir asked me to drive to The Curve. Wrong move brother, I never tinggal at Damansara, I dont know the jalan here. So as expected, sesat! But finally sampai juga. Kahkahkah. But it was a day well spent. I had fun and sakit perut gelak here and there. 

Oh and semalam, was a really wonderful day. I went out with Emil. Well, it was too wonderful to even translated into words here. So, yeah. I had so much fun with my man. 

And I was like, 

"Emil, I'm your Gia and you're my Alex" Kahkahkah. 

Or

You can be my King Julien and I'm your Sonya :P



Hahaha, until then,
xo