Saturday, November 5, 2011

Play. Pause. Fast Forward. Rewind. Stop

I thought I found the best damn friends ever. I thought I had found my second family. I thought I had found the people who actually understand me inside out, accept me for who I am. I thought I could create a good memory out of this damn school days. 

Hey, tell me I have too high expectation.
Tell me I was only dreaming
Tell me I've made a fool out of myself in front of you guys
Tell me that you never really care for me
Tell me that I made all the mess
Tell me how you actually define friendship
Tell me

Unlike any other people, 
I can't wait to get my butt out of the school
I can't wait to erase all the memory, no, to forget all the memory

I want to escape from this feeling.

Yes, we're already okay now.
Yes, I've already forgive each and every although some didn't even care to apologize
Yes, I've promised I would never talk about this again

But the pain is just so profound.

As fragile as a crystal,
That is just the way I am. I'm sorry. 

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Back to basic.


That feeling when you're excited having a pet cat :)


I mean Ohmygawd me Dolce is shoo adorable and so manja one, look at him :') He ain't beautiful like those persian or bengal cat but there is actually something in him that makes us the daughters of Herman Ramli cant stop loving him :D Hahhaaha

Okay so just now, I colored my hair, again! Haha my gawd my hair = gone case -_-" 
So this time I decided to choose Burgundy! But I know it won't give the Burgundy effect pun -,-" So basically you can say that I color my hair black again, so perhatian ya Badar, don't have to worry, the red thingy on my head won't be visible dah. Suka lettew. Haha Eww, sejak bila la aku guna bahasa konon2 urban haha. 

Kthxbai
(and again)

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

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The Awakening of My Dormant Brain.

Where to start ? Where to begin?

I've been studying everyday but neither any ways can make my brain starts working with 100% efficiency.
I don't know why I cannot focus every time i do my exercises. I tried to but still cannot. Too many distraction I guess? Facebook? Phone? Twitter? Shopping Mall? Everything.

Well, Study is priority. Studying is important. But what if we keep studying but the reality is that we don't know what are we studying instead we just keep study and study and read read read everything. Similar to me. I tried to digest every single lines hoping that my cerebral cortex will remember and stores all the details in my little brain. But I failed.

Well maybe "All work and no play makes Jane a dull woman"

You think? :/ 

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Defining Heartbeat

What crosses your mind when I ask you to define ‘heartbeat’?

       For a scientific minded like a doctor or so, they might think that ‘heartbeat’ refers to the pumping of oxygen throughout the body by the heart. The alternate relaxation and contraction of the heart will produced a ‘lub’ and ‘dub’ sounds and that is what they called ‘heartbeat’. In a nutshell, without this ‘heartbeat’, our body won’t get sufficient oxygen needed to carry out cellular respiration and our cell body will eventually die. And that equals to us being dead too.

       That is what I expected to cross their mind when I said the word heartbeat. But for a not-so-scientific-minded student like me, I have another viewpoint when defining the word ‘heartbeat’.

       I defined heartbeat as something we hold on to; it doesn’t matter, a person, a thing, whatever it is that we hold on to just to survive from all the agony, the pain, the suffering, the obstacles in life. Because the fact that you still have that certain someone in your life, you will definitely make through the hindrance. It could be your husband, your wife, your parents, your friends, your teachers or your idols. They will give you some kind of energy to your soul.

Have you ever experienced situation like this? When you are in a difficulties and seems like there is no way out of it, or it may be the end of your life when suddenly a picture of your special one crosses your mind. During that fine moment, all the black and blues were overshadowed by the smiling picture of your special someone in your mind. And suddenly you feel powerful and energetic. Your head cleared and you will realize that there is actually a way out of the maze.

Just like the heartbeat, it supplies oxygen to the cell bodies to live. And thus, will generate the mitochondrion in the cells to produce plenty of energy and metabolisms. When your body has plenty of energy, you are capable to do many things. Just imagine you without energy; enervated, lackadaisical, weak, you named it. You don’t want to let yourself die, do you?

From my point of view, heartbeat resembles that special one in life too. For a normal teenager, they might refer their boyfriend or girlfriend as their heartbeat. For an adult, they might refer their other half as their heartbeat. Some also refer their family as their heartbeat. But majority refer their lover as their heartbeat. It is undeniably correct, right? It doesn’t matter because no one knows who we are referring. Just imagine if these person suddenly gone, in what condition you will be? Let me guess, soulless? Or perhaps depressed? Or in an accurate way, you feel like your soul has already died. You lose the fight.

It is similar to the heartbeat process. If your heart fails to function, the pumping of oxygen will not occur. And that equals to no cellular respiration. No cellular respiration equals to no physiological process will takes place. No physiological process equals to body malfunction. And finally, body malfunction will leads to self destruction. Eventually, we will die.

So, people, do you get my idea and viewpoints? Keep your body and mind healthy inside out. Care enough must be taken for your heart to function well. And care enough also must be taken for your love ones to stick to you and give that unseen energy and power. Every time you are facing trouble, just picture your ‘heartbeat’ in your head and eventually things will get better.


Haha okay ni my opinion saja. So do share with me if you have your own point of view :)

Cheers. xxx

Monday, June 6, 2011

New way to communicate.

Things are getting a little bit tense with time :/

Oh and I never knew we can express our feeling towards each other through..

telepathy

har har har. Do you sense sarcasm? Lol. Okay okay, I was being sarcastic.

Whatever. Just, don't bother.

Hati yang lara,
xxx

#SoMalaysian

Take note: These are only from my point of view. No offence yeah.

If you tweet, you will come across that. It was funny at first when we read their tweets. But somehow when I read it back, again and again. I just start to think. They keep questioning and in a way, condemn about the mentality of the Malays.
Isn't that a bit.. ah you figure out the word by yourself.

This is human nature. We keep condemn and question about others. Why don't we reflect ourselves? Sometimes we didn't realize that, the bad things that we said to other people, sometimes, yeah maybe we also do it, involuntary or voluntary.

I've came across people like this. And I admit it, I also did thing like this sometimes.
Take an example,
I've known someone, not going to mention her/his name.
She/He said to me : "Hey, tengoklah that couple apa ni geli gila PDA, tak tau malu ke, dah la melayu. Eww!"
And for the next few months, that person got a lover.
And the person also did PDA. And by that time, that's the only time she/he didn't condemn those couple out there who did PDA, because he/she also do it.


Okay, so my point is, why don't we reflect and fix ourselves rather than condemning other people, because we all know, nobody is perfect.


xoxo.

Friday, June 3, 2011

Save the environment!

Okay for a second thought, here's another post for today.

Its the least I can do for mother nature, eventho I'm a rookie in this field, but I did my best. And I see the beauty of the mother nature through my Lens. Here go :)

Caught this bird in action just behind my house. 

Sorry for the bad quality! Okay this one ulat bulu tengah makan daun and sumpah laju gila dia makan. Hey takkan nak tengok this cutesy lost its food source? Save the environment!

Hey dont destroy these lalang2. :)

And even (so-called) model uses the environment as their subject !




Come one people. Reduce the activity of.. building malls, and cutting down the trees. 
We should be grateful and face the fact that we already had more than enough when we cut down the forest and build our resident and mall and building. We already had enough of that. 

Yes, you can stop this.


Come, make the world a better place to live. We demand so many things in our life. Why don't we be grateful and respect the mother nature. 

SAVE THE ENVIRONMENT! :)

xoxo