Serious

There will be no more playing after this. There will be no more merepek-ing after this. There will be no more wasting time, or breaking the rules, or fooling around like a kiddy kid. I'm friggin 18 yrs old. I have my own goal. And by hook or by crook, I will achieve it.

Greatest Lesson

Being in a family with moderate income, I may be too comfortable with my life, and sometimes may be too alert. It depends. But most of the time, I would be spending my parents' money on something useless. Getting money from them is effortless. Especially when you are the youngest, of course you will be pampered. I am not excluded.
(My family is not rich. Like I said we are moderate. Please don't get me wrong when I said I can get money effortlessly.)

So, of course, sometimes I might be carried away with all those so-called-happiness on earth. But today, a few persons opened my eyes. Waking me up. Yes.

Today, I was having dinner at a restaurant. Not a lavish one, but okay lah. While we were eating, came a guy, dressed up properly like imam or something. I thought he was going to ask for donation or what. I don't mind people like em, but sometimes it annoys me (bukan apa, ada yang menipu. Or ada agensi yang paksa mengemis, kesian juga.) But I was wrong. Well, I was not wrong about he came from any rumah anak yatim. Ahaha. But he didn't ask for donation. He came right up to us. Like a professional businessman, he introduced himself and said that the Rumah anak yatim(I dont remember where) had bake a lot of "Kek Lapis Sarawak" and they intent to sell them. It is freshly baked by them. I was.. oh, there are effort, at least. And to my surprise, he sold it with a really cheap price for a 'Kek Lapis Sarawak'. So I got myself a Cheese Kek Lapis Sarawak. Hehe, there were lots of flavour; pandan, chocolate, hazel, cheese, blueberry etc etc. I was amazed. I never seen any guy from Rumah Anak Yatim do an extra effort to gain money like this before. Well I don't know abt you guys, ahaha. I was really touched by his determination. (Y)

So, afterwards, I went out of the restaurant. I only have RM 10 inside my purse. So, I thought of buying a prepaid. Coz I was in need of Celcom topup at that time. Lucky me, I saw a booth selling topup at that time. So yeah, I wait for the S/A to layan me. Suddenly I saw an OKU guy. He was kinda old. Probably in his 40s or 50s. He sat there on his wheelchair, with a tiny table in front of him. There sat a box of pens. Lots of pens, it was in packet actually. At the front of the table, there was a label said "1 paket 5 pen RM10 :)". Sadly nobody even stopped to look at him. He was there, neglected. His packets of pens were still many. Its like nobody even bought them. When I looked at his face, there was no sign of sadness, or how frustating he was because nobody cares about him. Yet, he still sat there, relax and always smilling. Again, I was amazed by his determination to get his nafkah. For his family, for himself. He didn't ask for donation..he was just selling his pens there. I was so freaking touched. At last, I cancelled my intention to bought the prepaid. I walked towards him and I said with a smile, "Pak Cik, saya ada RM10 je. Saya nak satu paket pen ni boleh, pak cik?". I can tell by his face that he was so happy and he said, "Boleh nak, sila pilih pen warna apa awak nak." I smiled at him and I took random pens. Then he said Thank you and smiled. I didn't know what to say, I just smile. Afterwards I saw him again, with his wheelchair, he was struggling at the basement, wheeling towards his old proton saga. It was really hard for him to open his door and get in. To my surprise, a few kind hearted young guys came and helped him get up from his wheelchair and all. I sat at the corner and just smile.

And deep inside my heart, I whisper to myself, "I wish there are more people like this in the world. The earth would be a better place to live."

Relationship

'Do you want to bring books today? I mean it is your exam week, you should study.' "No, today Imma concentrate 100% on Tika :)"

Believe me, those words make me melt more and more. I am really convinced by his love. I know we're still young to actually involve in a serious relationship. But the evaluation starts here. If he treats me badly now, he might do the same if we're married. But so far, he never treat me wrong. I wonder where would we go after this. How long will our love last. Are we going to achieve those everlasting moment; marriage?

I'm sorry, I know I'm just 18 and some might think that I don't have any rights yet to talk about marriage. I don't mean that I want to marry at early age, No. I want to finish my Degree and work first. Yeah, but we do need future planning right? Plus, I'm the type of girl who will accept to be in a relationship IF and only if both of us know where are we going in the future. We have one purpose; serious relationship. Yeah, I made mistake before. I was too young when I was in my first ever relationship before. But forget that, I'm not living in the past anyway.

It's kinda cheesy talking about this. Ehehe, but I do have some plans in mind. And I really hope this relationship will last forever. Amin.

Chance

Brain death is the irreversible end of all brain activity due to total necrosis of the cerebral neurons following loss of brain oxygenation. Necrosis in a simpler language is the death of cells. By looking at the words 'Brain Death', you obviously know the meaning.

Why am I posting about brain death? Well, maybe because I just faced with a really close brain-death experience. Only God knows how grateful I am. Brain death can occur if you hit your head really hard. At first, it might seems nothing. You might seems okay. But the effect is afterwards. Have you watch Grey's Anatomy? I don't remember which episodes. But it was about two sisters involved in accident. They were admitted to the hospital. They can still argue, blaming each other. Both seems really fine, just bruises here and there. But after that, her sister suddenly had epilepsy (if I'm not mistaken) and bloods running down her nose. The doctors brought her to the surgical room. And yes, she was brain-dead. Meaning her brain is dead ( isn't that obvious ), but her organs are still working perfectly. And usually the organs can be donated to the needy.

So, back to my story. I was cleaning my toilet this morning. My bad, I didn't wear the anti-slip slipper. Just bare foot. Scrubbing the toilet floor like a makcik. Maybe I put too much Kiwi Kleen, and the floor becomes too slippery. I scrub and scrub when suddenly I don't know why my feet lost its balance. For a second, I can't feel the floor. And I feel like I'm flying. I swear my heart stopped beating that time. I closed my eyes, praying Oh God please save me. Luckily, Adrenaline flowed through my body. That makes my body stronger, more alert. Upon landing my head first to the floor (haha) my hand, as fast as lightning, grabbed the bath tub holder. Ya Allah, thanks for that, I managed to avoid my head from hitting the floor first and received all the impact from my body. It was still painful, since my body landed first. But syukur, my head was okay, tergantung liddat since I sempat hold the bath tub holder. If not, my head would hit the floor yang keras so bad, and receive the impact from my body sangat banyak. Syukur, syukur. If not, I could become sewel by now, maybe some part of my brain will be injured? Ya Allah, thanks for giving me a chance to live :')

Yes, you might think its no big deal. Jatuh dekat toilet? Biasa lah tu. As a scientific student, I don't see it like that. I always think about the long term effect. How would it affect my head if I hit really hard? How would it affect my thinking? and etc etc. So yeah, it is kinda big deal.

And anyway, I'm suffering from body aching now, probably the long term effect after hitting my body really hard. But no problem, Yoko Yoko to the rescue.
Till then.

Lips.

I'm not abandoning this blog. Its either I ran out of idea on what to write, or I am just a lazy bastard who doesn't have a perfect life to share with everybody. Anyway, lots of things happened recently. Literally banyak. There are good things, bad things. Biasalah, life as you know it. I'm not going to update everything here. Because the fact that I'm a lazy ass told me to do so. Ha-ha. So, let me break down the topic into more detailed area.

Health & Living
I am so ashamed of myself. Ever since I arrived in Malaysia, I automatically turned into a piggy pig. You know what I mean? Like a pig, I eat a lot, I sleep a lot, I drink a lot, I don't do any exercise, I shit a lot. Lol. Seriously, what have I become? At Ireland, at least I've got exercises to do; swimming. Yes, I freaking love swimming. It makes me feel like a mermaid. I want to swim swim but the fact that I don't know where is actually a good place to swim and the extra-ordinary heat from the sun have hindered my noble intention. Jogging? Hmm, No! Why? Because Kuala Lumpur is freaking polluted man! Treadmill? Hmm, my sister uses the treadmill as the place to hang her clothes. So, no space for me to run run LOL

A proof that my treadmill is unusable LOL

My reaction if you ajak me go jog jog :p

Hobbies

Photography? I'm so sad when it comes to Photography. The fact that my laptop is dead already makes me lost my precious photo editor, Adobe Photoshop. Bitch please, we are living in a world whereby photographers use DIGITAL slr. Due to lots of frames that needed to be passed, of course the color, resolution, pixels and etc etc won't be accurate in a digital photo. That's why I need my Adobi (my photoshop's manja name). So, right now I didn't do any photography activity. So kesian my Obi-Wan, (my dslr's manja name) bosan sebab tak dapat tangkap any beautiful photos. Sabar ye Obi-Wan, nanti Mama Tika betulkan laptop okay? xxx

Pets! Yes! I'm a girl with a big heart for animal! Specifically feline and all furry animals. Since I don't have anything to do, I've adopted a hedgehog, and a kitten. My best friend, Sheera and I also went to SPCA to spend time with our furry friends. And I swear, I almost cried looking at the animals' condition there. It was a nice move me and Sheera went there. At least we got a little bit of exposure of what the other side of the world look like. Tak tengok lagi bab manusia. *Sigh*. I've promised myself, if insyaAllah my result SPM okay, I want to do charity works. InsyaAllah.

My New Kitten: Bobot :3

Social Life & Education

Talking about social life, I didn't get to see all of my friends pun. It's okay. I understand that everyone is busy with their own plans. :/ But thank god, there is my little Emil Qadri who is willing to spend time with me although he is busy with his foundation :). Last time I met with few Taiping friends. It was okay, although things were a bit awkward because I dah lama tak jumpa mereka. But, yeah I miss them! I met Sarah during edu fair. Honestly, I planned so many outings with my friends but only 10-20% of them yang menjadi :( But I don't blame them.
Next week result SPM! Ya Allah, I feel numb. I don't know what will be written in that small slip. I'm praying everyday hoping that God grants my wish :'( I dreamed about taking SPM and getting the result most of the time! It's like haunting me, in real life and in dream land! Gosh, I really hope I'll pass with flying colors. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.
I also went to Education Fair, studying in UK last time. It is more suitable for people who finished their pre-University programs. But tak salah kan I nak bertanya-tanya juga. I went to the seminar, and few booths. I asked about three course; Medicine (of course), Veterinary Science, and Molecular Biology/Bioscience. At least from now, I got a clear path on what I will do later.
Oh oh, I also attend Art Class at Malaysian Institute of Art. It was fun! :3

Ok, people. Trust me, if you let me update in this single post, it will be endless!!
Haha, so till the next post
:D

Like A Ninja

It's been such a long time eyh.

Please tell me what actually happened when I'm off to Ireland?

Being the person I shud really be

Oh, I admit it. It ain't easy. On and off.. on and off. This starts to annoy me. I'm annoyed with myself as I can't keep up with the good momentum. -_- Sometimes I feel so motivated. But in a split of second, these stupid satanic voice managed to distract me. Oh Lord, I seek forgiveness, please forgive me and strengthen my Iman. T.T So disappointed with myself. Hopefully when I get back to Malaysia I can push myself and maintain the good momentum!

Oh and last time I tried to put on this selendang and I like this style. If I were going to wear this for good later, I'll wear it like this hihi :3

Anyway sorry for the so mengada pose :P haha
cheerio!
Bye