Keep counting.

It has been one month since the last time that i met him.

Keep counting, still counting. 

I'm waiting and waiting.

Am I doing something stupid here?
Somebody just tell me.

Does he even care bout this?

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I Miss Everything About You

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you

It has been 28 days since the last day that I saw you.

Snow at home

Okay I regret colouring my hair last few months, these are the side effects -_-
rambut kering macam dawai.
colour bukan vibrant sangat, dah tak vibrant langsung dah
kulit kepala tak sihat
dandruff turun macam salji.

lesson learnt. 
Don't ever try to dye your hair, it's not worthed it T_T 

Hey Friday

"I'll give you everything,

 But I won't give u up"

                                      

I'm so heavy in your arms baby.

"Hidup ini memang palat, 
tetapi esok masih ada"

Outside and the inside,
Big difference.
No one dares to seek for the truth. Or at least, to know the truth.
Guess what?
I-Don't-Fucking-Care 

Chiao
xxx

Run, just run.

Light up and light up.

As if you have a choice.

Even if you cannot hear my voice,

I'll be right beside you 

 Louder, louder

Hidup ini macam roda.

Kaunselor selalu cakap hidup kita macam roda. Apa yang kita buat dekat orang hari ni, tak kisahlah baik atau buruk, bila masa hadapan, mesti ada orang buat perkara yang seolah-olah sama kepada kita. In an easy word, what goes around comes around. I used to think that it's just a word. Plain motivational word that all the motivators in the world have memorized. So I don't pay that much attention when he said about that. I was just listening and listening but none of the words stick to my heart, or at least passed by or stick to it.

And now, eventually it happened to me. I don't really regret of not listening to the motivator. It just got me thinking. The word.. is relevant. Yes, very. And now I agreed with those motivational word. I don't want to tell what I had done to other people or what other people did to me. Let the story be. But what I'm going to say is, it is really true, when you do something bad/good to one person, in the future, the exact same thing will be experienced by you. God is being fair. Yes, that's why we are encouraged to do good deeds rather than doing sin.

I still remember what the motivator said, " Okay saya bagi awak situasi, sekarang ni, awak suka tipu mak awak dan buat benda jahat, takpun awak ni jenis yang rebellious terhadap parents awak. Awak tak fikir kesan dia. Dan Allah ni Maha Adil, nanti bila awak dah besar, anak awak akan buat benda yang sama dekat awak. Dan waktu tu lah awak akan mula berfikir tentang perkara2 yang awak dah lakukan kat parents awak. Waktu tu jugaklah awak akan faham perasaan mereka macam mana. Dan bila tiba waktu itu, sudah tiada guna nak menyesal benda2 yang awak dah buat kat parents awak. " Okay that one struck through my head, maybe because to my parents, I am the rebel one. Sometimes, I lied to y parents, yes I did. Now, when there's still time, I'll try my best to eliminate those flaws.

Well, I was just posting this entry , to share my thoughts. Yeap, and regarding to the topic.. Yeah, I pay the price. I did something bad to a person in the past, and now another people did the exact same thing to me. Now, I know what the person I had hurt feel bout this. But I won't say anything. I will go through this patiently, and I'll take this as a lesson. Like I said, I will pay for the price.

Cheers.
xxx

Distance

Sometimes, in life we have to keep the distance apart between the people that we fond of (eg best friend, friends, boyfriend wtv). If you noticed, when the bond is really tight, it will be a problem-magnet, we will tend to be more comfortable with him/her and sometimes we didn't even notice that we have hurt her/his feeling. It's true. I've experienced this before.

And now I've made my mind. I'll keep the distance apart with some of the people that I really love, just to tighten the bond even more, in a different way really. And sometimes when we keep the distance apart, we will learn how to appreciate them. Am I correct? So, if anybody feel like I'm avoiding her/him, please.. I don't have any bad intention to do so. It's only because I love him/her and I want us to be closer, in a different way. I love my friends so much. No doubt.

P/S : This is just my point of view, so no offence eyh.

Cheers!
xx

December, please be good to me. :(

November, i screwed it all. I've made a huge mistake since the past few days.
Can't help it, its already happened. Remembering Wednesday/
Recap all the memories that struck through my head like a lightning bolt.
I do miss as being as wonderful, used to be wonderful as it seems.
But life must go on.
Everything comes and go.
And I pray to god, that this one will stay close to me. Bare with me. Protect me. Like a real Salvatore fighting for his senorita. As wonderful as it seems. Like a fairytale with a happy ending.
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Lifeless
I've been going out with some TGB and Serting friends just now. I don't know why I go out. My heart said no but my body wont listen. Moving like a robot, I went out of the house, to the LRT and straight to Sunway Pyramid. I met Yaz, the woman that I've been looking forward to meet. Oh I miss her, she hasn't changed at all. Still the cheerful, cute Yaz. And then I met some Serting Taiping friends. I also met some new friends. We went for an ice skate. This is so not a place for me to hang out at the moment. Those memories wanted to haunt me back but I quickly erased them. I don't want it to spoil my mood. I just want to have fun with the girls and guys today. I saw Tasha and we exchange 'hye' and smile. But after that, she vanished like a wind. Haha, I want to hang out with her, but she disappeared. The day was okay but I doubted that my mind was with them just now. I really think that Sunway Pyramid/Lagoon is not a place for me at the moment. I'm so vulnerable and I'm an emotional type of person, I don't know why. I used to be so tough-minded and I used to hate emo shits, but now I'm turning to those. Only God knows what makes me become so Emotional. Oh forget it. I hate talking emo shits. There are only few of the pics because my dslr is a bitch. Real Bitch. First Class Bitch.

Me, Kiki and the tgb's girls :-)

December December December


I must say that I'm really looking forward to December. It might be good. Papa will be coming back from Lagos this 10th or 11th December. I miss you Popo :) Being home with just Ma and Ica is kinda bored as we don't really know what to do. Ica is busy with her works. Mummy always go out with Makteh. And me? Workout. Pfft not all day. Boringg! And this December, Nana and Naim will come to Malaysia. Hoho I kinda miss them. And December.. the month where he will bring me to the stars, like he promised. :-D

Oh and December, bulan yang aku kena siapkan semua kerja rumah -_-

cheers
xx