Keep counting.

It has been one month since the last time that i met him.

Keep counting, still counting. 

I'm waiting and waiting.

Am I doing something stupid here?
Somebody just tell me.

Does he even care bout this?

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I Miss Everything About You

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you

It has been 28 days since the last day that I saw you.

Snow at home

Okay I regret colouring my hair last few months, these are the side effects -_-
rambut kering macam dawai.
colour bukan vibrant sangat, dah tak vibrant langsung dah
kulit kepala tak sihat
dandruff turun macam salji.

lesson learnt. 
Don't ever try to dye your hair, it's not worthed it T_T 

Hey Friday

"I'll give you everything,

 But I won't give u up"

                                      

I'm so heavy in your arms baby.

"Hidup ini memang palat, 
tetapi esok masih ada"

Outside and the inside,
Big difference.
No one dares to seek for the truth. Or at least, to know the truth.
Guess what?
I-Don't-Fucking-Care 

Chiao
xxx

Run, just run.

Light up and light up.

As if you have a choice.

Even if you cannot hear my voice,

I'll be right beside you 

 Louder, louder

Hidup ini macam roda.

Kaunselor selalu cakap hidup kita macam roda. Apa yang kita buat dekat orang hari ni, tak kisahlah baik atau buruk, bila masa hadapan, mesti ada orang buat perkara yang seolah-olah sama kepada kita. In an easy word, what goes around comes around. I used to think that it's just a word. Plain motivational word that all the motivators in the world have memorized. So I don't pay that much attention when he said about that. I was just listening and listening but none of the words stick to my heart, or at least passed by or stick to it.

And now, eventually it happened to me. I don't really regret of not listening to the motivator. It just got me thinking. The word.. is relevant. Yes, very. And now I agreed with those motivational word. I don't want to tell what I had done to other people or what other people did to me. Let the story be. But what I'm going to say is, it is really true, when you do something bad/good to one person, in the future, the exact same thing will be experienced by you. God is being fair. Yes, that's why we are encouraged to do good deeds rather than doing sin.

I still remember what the motivator said, " Okay saya bagi awak situasi, sekarang ni, awak suka tipu mak awak dan buat benda jahat, takpun awak ni jenis yang rebellious terhadap parents awak. Awak tak fikir kesan dia. Dan Allah ni Maha Adil, nanti bila awak dah besar, anak awak akan buat benda yang sama dekat awak. Dan waktu tu lah awak akan mula berfikir tentang perkara2 yang awak dah lakukan kat parents awak. Waktu tu jugaklah awak akan faham perasaan mereka macam mana. Dan bila tiba waktu itu, sudah tiada guna nak menyesal benda2 yang awak dah buat kat parents awak. " Okay that one struck through my head, maybe because to my parents, I am the rebel one. Sometimes, I lied to y parents, yes I did. Now, when there's still time, I'll try my best to eliminate those flaws.

Well, I was just posting this entry , to share my thoughts. Yeap, and regarding to the topic.. Yeah, I pay the price. I did something bad to a person in the past, and now another people did the exact same thing to me. Now, I know what the person I had hurt feel bout this. But I won't say anything. I will go through this patiently, and I'll take this as a lesson. Like I said, I will pay for the price.

Cheers.
xxx

Distance

Sometimes, in life we have to keep the distance apart between the people that we fond of (eg best friend, friends, boyfriend wtv). If you noticed, when the bond is really tight, it will be a problem-magnet, we will tend to be more comfortable with him/her and sometimes we didn't even notice that we have hurt her/his feeling. It's true. I've experienced this before.

And now I've made my mind. I'll keep the distance apart with some of the people that I really love, just to tighten the bond even more, in a different way really. And sometimes when we keep the distance apart, we will learn how to appreciate them. Am I correct? So, if anybody feel like I'm avoiding her/him, please.. I don't have any bad intention to do so. It's only because I love him/her and I want us to be closer, in a different way. I love my friends so much. No doubt.

P/S : This is just my point of view, so no offence eyh.

Cheers!
xx

December, please be good to me. :(

November, i screwed it all. I've made a huge mistake since the past few days.
Can't help it, its already happened. Remembering Wednesday/
Recap all the memories that struck through my head like a lightning bolt.
I do miss as being as wonderful, used to be wonderful as it seems.
But life must go on.
Everything comes and go.
And I pray to god, that this one will stay close to me. Bare with me. Protect me. Like a real Salvatore fighting for his senorita. As wonderful as it seems. Like a fairytale with a happy ending.
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Lifeless
I've been going out with some TGB and Serting friends just now. I don't know why I go out. My heart said no but my body wont listen. Moving like a robot, I went out of the house, to the LRT and straight to Sunway Pyramid. I met Yaz, the woman that I've been looking forward to meet. Oh I miss her, she hasn't changed at all. Still the cheerful, cute Yaz. And then I met some Serting Taiping friends. I also met some new friends. We went for an ice skate. This is so not a place for me to hang out at the moment. Those memories wanted to haunt me back but I quickly erased them. I don't want it to spoil my mood. I just want to have fun with the girls and guys today. I saw Tasha and we exchange 'hye' and smile. But after that, she vanished like a wind. Haha, I want to hang out with her, but she disappeared. The day was okay but I doubted that my mind was with them just now. I really think that Sunway Pyramid/Lagoon is not a place for me at the moment. I'm so vulnerable and I'm an emotional type of person, I don't know why. I used to be so tough-minded and I used to hate emo shits, but now I'm turning to those. Only God knows what makes me become so Emotional. Oh forget it. I hate talking emo shits. There are only few of the pics because my dslr is a bitch. Real Bitch. First Class Bitch.

Me, Kiki and the tgb's girls :-)

December December December


I must say that I'm really looking forward to December. It might be good. Papa will be coming back from Lagos this 10th or 11th December. I miss you Popo :) Being home with just Ma and Ica is kinda bored as we don't really know what to do. Ica is busy with her works. Mummy always go out with Makteh. And me? Workout. Pfft not all day. Boringg! And this December, Nana and Naim will come to Malaysia. Hoho I kinda miss them. And December.. the month where he will bring me to the stars, like he promised. :-D

Oh and December, bulan yang aku kena siapkan semua kerja rumah -_-

cheers
xx

Fat?

Aha, just finished my 2 gym session with pt Razin at celebrity fitness. Thank you :-)

Okay here's the thing he said to tone up or lose weight, ahaha

1) CARDIO
Yes cardio, this is important man. According to Razin, this is to increase the stamina, heart condition and health of course. Eg of activities (to do at gym) : Cycling, running on threadmill, and i dont know what the heck is that activity called, but its on a machine yang where u move your feet front to back. hahaa. well basically you can do this activity outside with fresh air.

2) WEIGHT TRAINING
This is to increase the strenght. And also to tone up your body, which you replaced all the fat with muscle. And obviously to lose fat. Eg : Playing with barbell, body crunch, pumping, play with all the machine. Haha.

Notes : Doing cardio only won't toned up your body.

For the best result ( Lose weight, increase strength, body tone, stamina and health condition) :
Cardio + Weight training. Approximately in 1 hour. Do this alternately, then you will get the result.

Haha, just sharing some tips. Lets lead a healthy life!
Cheers!
xoxo

And another.

Remembering Sunday

I'm terrified to speak but you'd expect that from me

xoxo

Teruja

Finally, penantian yang lama ditunggu akhirnya tamat. Oh fagg I received my result d. And it... sucks. Big time. -_-

Apa guna aku masuk Maktab Sains? Sedangkan aku benci subjek sains. And dalam slip, markah yang paling rendah, goes to.. Bio and Physics. Waddafak, and Kimia pun teruk gila. Tak boleh carry on lah. I hate science. Somebody teach me science puhlease. Ohmagad. And the highest goes to.. Senireka which is 90 ohhoii i should take Seni visual from the start -_-

Whatever, bukannya spm pun. tak mati pun dapat result teruk, cuma malu la sikit. Haha so long, am gonna burn this slip, dahla fotostat, where is the original slip. Grr im gonna bite you in the head -________-

So long Earthlings,
xxx

Yours truly,

Hello. For this entry, I'm just gonna confess everything that im feeling at the moment, no point of view, no telling facts, because I'm not in the mood to do so. I got nowhere dah to express my feeling. I'm feeling miserable at best. I stay up all night long, thinking what may happen in the future.. *sigh*

24/11/2010

I don't know what's got into me today. I woke up in the morning, thinking bout last night punya text. I was wondering what is he going to say. Thinking zzz.. I sent him a text. And then I went to the toilet, get ready for the Gym Session.

.....

Fiqa buat surprise apa datang wangsa walk! Dahla at the gym pulak, haha nak tak nak Ive to stop workout, takkan nak biar dia tunggu. Then we went to KLCC, teman Fiqa and Munir dating. Why am I always the one yang teman orang dating, I wonder jugak. Im feeeling so goddam pathetic, I'm speechless. Then jumpa Fifa. So good to see them, I miss them, big time.

Okay for the rest of the day, I was not okay. My mind keep wondering about him? I don't know why.
At night lagi parah, I decided not to go to Zuhair's party. Im so not in the mood for party or to meet Mwt's friends or senang kata I wanna be alone. I went to my room, feeling goddamm melodramatic. I just stare at the phone, hoping something I was expecting to happen. But it didnt. I understand, really understand that theyre having SPM at the moment, and I should never complain. Dahla esok paper Sejarah. I know, i know. But my goddam sensitive heart ( I HATE IT) mcm tak reti2 nak faham. I waited for him. Then I got a text. I didnt show any enthusiasm when  replying his text, I was in the pain, I cant act all fine. But he's to naive to notice that. I didnt blame you, seriously. After his text, I just don't know what to do, I just stare at the ceiling, feeling numb. Then, after that, I felt a great feeling of pain strike through me. Oh god, why is it really painful to love someone, really really painful. I can't help my self and I'm drown in tears. For the whole night. Whole night. I'm very2 sad, the more I love him, the more pain I get. Why does my heart aching? He takes good care of me, really. But I just dont know why I keep feeling the emotional pain. I always blame myself for this. I keep giving him problems, I keep worrying him, it's like I'm a burden to him. Am I? I used to say Love is a Burden. And now I think I am a burden to him. I feel like killing myself. I don't wanna hurt him. What should I do?

S.O.S

.

.

.

.

Yours truly,

xxx

Pissed Off

Yeah Shut The Fu*k Up

Get out of my life -_-

Kiss and Goodbye

xoxo

Reminiscing

My Obsession : To look at the flower and to wear the initial 'A'

Thank you for giving this to me. You don't know how much it means to me ^^

Have you ever received something from someone that is so special? Do you know how it feels? Appreciated aite? I'm touched to the core when I received anything, from someone so special. It could be from your mummy, daddy, sisters, brothers, friends, or perhaps your loved ones? :) Well its a symbol that they love you. And you have to appreciate them, love them. They won't expect you to give something in return. Or you can return it in the form of love :) Make the world a better place with love. The word love is very big and deep, and so does the meaning of it. 

Quotes of the day! :)
"We were given: Two hands to hold. Two legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find."

Toodles

xx

Teenage Dream

Greetings.
I don't really know what the hell I'm gonna write about today. Teenage dream eyh? The word suddenly come across my mind for no reason, or perhaps some reasons. Haha. 

Every teenager has a dream. And when it comes to 'teenage dream', it usually refer to their love life. And the question is, would their teenage dream last longer than they thought? Or teenage dream just last for teenager stage, and after teenage state, comes another adult dream? Oh god, I hate it when it comes to this. 


As for myself, do I have a teenage dream? Yes I do. And I know how it feels to have a teenage dream. It's wonderful, paradise, you will feel that you're the luckiest humanoid alive on this lame pathetic world. But I doubt that we will last that long. I wanna last forever, that is my teenage dream. I always think about him leaving me. Always. I tried my best to keep it to myself, but sometimes when I cant stand it, I told him and that makes him worry to the core. I'm afraid of losing him. I don't wanna experience another heartbreaks. I made mistakes before this, and I got hurt, and worst, I hurt that guy, which I used to fond of. I don't wanna make another mistake again. Sometimes, I thought to myself, is he the right guy? Am I too early to think about this? Will he keep his word? And yeah lots more. I pray to god that me and him will last long, because I really love him. For real, no doubt.


Enough about my teenage dream. Through my observation (no offence), some teenagers just wanna have fun. As in having a boyfriend/girlfriend. Maybe they want to try something new (oooo), and their teenage dream is wasted just like that. Yeah, some of them just wanna show their friend that he/she got a girlfriend/boyfriend, whatt the efff like those people care -_-. Or some people think its pathetic to not have a girlfriend/boyfriend yet when youre 15/16/17 ++  so they will hunt for one, and that is certainly not a real teenage dream. Some teenage girls are too caught up in being a guy who's the best for everyone else and not the best for themselves. Agreed? There are some like that, don't deny, its a fact. 


I don't know what else to say. I hope that every teenagers out there will find their real teenage dream, which will last long.. And they will know how it feels to have one, real teenage dream. Fantastic. :)


Cheerio
xxx

Save the best for the Last.

And as for the first entry today;

Some photos during the last days in MRSM Taiping in 2010.

Tu dia, studio fotografi, under Kelab Fotografi maktab. Seronok betul.

Photographers : Encik Abu Ali,

                         Encik Zulkeflee

                         Encik Bard ( I think)

Those talented people, I fancy them :) 

Di suatu senja. Laila, me and Shiro were walking to the class. A day before the graduation day for form 5 students. The view was not so breath taking but it was okay I guess. Gladly, I brought along my 450D, so there you go, enjoy :)

The sky macam tengah lawa. And bila ada bendera jadi perfect subject for the sky, *shoot*shoot*

Meet this Humanoid, Puteri Syafiqah www.puthreecstacy.blogspot.com

Come back fast. 

Goodluck in whatever you do :'( *tsk*tsk*

     Pasangan baru 2010/2011 and perhaps, forever? :)

Haha, okay, not much to tell actually. The last day didnt turn out like Im expecting it to. I thought it would be fun, loud, riot, and whatever the word is. But sadly, its been a boring, dull day -_- But hey, someone made my day and turn the gloomiest day ever into the happiest day ever. Thank you me Salvatore :) Haha enough of that, I went back by train with Amir Hamzah ( Sorry Najah, pinjam dia kejap). Our train depart at 12 am, sounds crazy aite. Tapi kejap je, because when we got into the train, we slept like a pig and bila bangun kaboom dah sampai kl, around 6 i guess.

Wahh Akhirnya dapat inhale Oxygen yang penuh dengan thrill and excitement.

KL Here I come :D

The End Is Where I Begin

Hello!
There are reasons why I create a new blog. Haha nevermind that. Im new, fresh and back on track <3